Wowsers! So since my last entry where I was oh so sad about not having a job, I have gotten a job! I am now teaching Kindergarten and I couldn't be happier. I am exhausted almost constantly, because it isn't just a 7-3 job like a lot of people think. Nope, I'm at work at 6:45 every morning, and a lot of the time, I don't leave until 5:30, and then I go home and work some more! But I feel so blessed to have this opportunity and I love every minute of it. I have a sweet, sweet group of 23 kids and I love how they each have their own little personality. We are still working on being able to actually sit still in our chairs and not talk the entire day, but I am seeing progress every day. That progress makes me so excited because I think of how far we have come in just 4 weeks, and then I look towards the end of the year and wonder how much they will have grown intellectually by then! I am SO EXCITED! I just know that I am going to be so proud of all of my sweet kids and maybe even a little bit proud of myself :). It's definitely not a job that college truly prepares you for. A lot of it you kind of just have to figure out because all of the kids are so different and they respond differently to everything. Anyway, as exhausting at it is, I LOVE my job!!
Also, since my last entry, Spencer and I have bought our first house. We started building in January and moved in mid-May. We are loving being homeowners and are decorating constantly. I am sort of a perfectionist when it comes to having my house decorated, so I don't want to invite anyone over because it's not perfect, and then Spencer has to tell me that it's a never ending process and that it looks fine how it is, so I have to let people come over. Haha. Speaking of Spencer, we have now been married for 1 year and 4 months exactly. It's crazy how fast time goes...
Well, thanks for reading my scatterbrained entry. Hopefully my next one won't be quite this bad. Haha. I guess I'm getting back into the swing of writing complete sentences and thoughts again. Have you ever noticed how little we actually do that in real life now? Hmm.. Anyway, Auburn is playing right now so I'm going to go watch for a little while. WAR EAGLE!
Peace out.
Saturday, September 15, 2012
Thursday, August 4, 2011
Oh jobs.....
Well, I never thought that getting a job would be easy, but I certainly didn't think it would be this difficult. I guess throughout my life and throughout college, I never really doubted that I would graduate and then get a teaching job somewhere. Maybe that would be true if it weren't for this stinky economy. You know, it's hard to apply for hundreds of teaching jobs and then come out with nothing. It sort of feels like you're invisible and I have struggled with a lot of doubt throughout this process. I started thinking maybe I wasn't meant to be a teacher (even though I feel like I'm good at it, and it is my passion), and like I just wasn't special enough to stand out to people. Thanks to my wonderful husband standing by me and shooting down every one of these blasphemous ideas, I have a renewed confidence about the future. I think that all of those cry sessions, doubts, and just feelings of intense insecurity were just lies that the enemy was trying to put on me. I wasn't finding my true value in God. I was making myself feel like I am not a special person just because I'm trying to find a job during a very difficult time for teachers. Several schools have closed up here in Huntsville, so a lot of the jobs that were opened are going to the teachers that lost their jobs in that process, and frankly, I think they're going to people with more experience. So this next year I will be substituting.. hopefully every day. Maybe getting my name out there, meeting people in the schools, and getting more experience will be good for me, and hopefully next year I will have a better chance of getting a job and accomplishing my ultimate dream. I still wish I could be preparing for my first classroom and on Monday morning, be meeting some of my new students, but I guess it's just not my time yet. And even though I'm a little disappointed and sad about it, I guess I feel like there's a reason that this happened and maybe there's something really special planned for me this year. I will admit, I haven't been the most reliant on God throughout this process, and so now I feel like I'm starting to get back to that place where I know that He does have a special plan for me. He has taken care of me so much by giving me a wonderful husband who has a job that can support both of us. That really has been a blessing because now I can fully commit myself to substituting and trying to break into this tough education business. I'm not going to be discouraged and I am not going to give up. This is what I am meant to do with my life, and a tough start is not going to make me quit. I am not a housewife, haha. I love taking care of Spencer, the kitten, and our home, but I can't take much more of this sitting-on-the-couch-doing-nothing-all-day lifestyle. I'm ready for a new school year and the opportunities that it will bring :) So keep me in your prayers! Peace out homies!
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
Life as a grown up.
So much has happened since my last post. First, on May 9th, I graduated in a sweltering hot ceremony from Auburn University! Yay! 4 years of hard work finished :) I had such a wonderful college experience and I am sort of sad to leave behind so many amazing friends!!
Also, I have officially been a married person for 51 incredible days! I love being married, and I am so blessed to have such an amazing husband!!
Wow, time sure does fly. We are happily settled in our new apartment, and Spencer really seems to be enjoying his job. He has made some friends that have the same crazy sense of humor that he does, which makes me happy :) Now I'm just waiting to make some friends of my own. One sweet little friend that I have now is our new kitten, Emma! We adopted her from one of the local shelters, and I am positively in LOVE with her! She is a playful little snuggler that will follow me around the apartment (she's actually sitting with me as I write this) and this morning, I found out that she can even dance! I was dancing around the apartment and she started following me around as usual, and as I was dancing, she was bouncing around herself! It was positively precious. Here's a picture of our sweet little ruffian :)
I'm still looking for a teaching job, which is going.... Well, it's going okay. I guess times are kind of hard in Huntsville and they aren't hiring as many new teachers (at least that's what I am telling myself so I don't lose all of my self esteem). I'm still hoping and praying that someone will give me a call telling me that they really want me to work at their school. If that doesn't happen, then I suppose I will be substituting for the next year and then giving it another go for the 2012-2013 school year. Please, please keep me in your prayers that I will find something!! Fortunately, Spencer has a good job, which I am so thankful for. I'm just waiting to see what opportunities are out there for me.. It's hard to wait around when you feel like you're meant to do something. But like I said, God has something out there for me, and unfortunately, in this case the timing seems to be more on His watch than mine. But it's not over until the fat lady sings, and she still has about a month left (when school starts) to start singing. Therefore, I am still hoping.
Oh, and what did we do for our 4th of July? I'm glad you asked! We went and got some Subway and picnicked and hiked up on beautiful Monte Sano State Park :) Then, we watched some wonderful fireworks! I love fireworks. They are quite awesome. Anyway, I've now got to go be all housewifey and run to the grocery store! I have some meals to plan! (I actually enjoy doing this, despite what I would have thought, haha)
Thanks for reading!
Also, I have officially been a married person for 51 incredible days! I love being married, and I am so blessed to have such an amazing husband!!
Wow, time sure does fly. We are happily settled in our new apartment, and Spencer really seems to be enjoying his job. He has made some friends that have the same crazy sense of humor that he does, which makes me happy :) Now I'm just waiting to make some friends of my own. One sweet little friend that I have now is our new kitten, Emma! We adopted her from one of the local shelters, and I am positively in LOVE with her! She is a playful little snuggler that will follow me around the apartment (she's actually sitting with me as I write this) and this morning, I found out that she can even dance! I was dancing around the apartment and she started following me around as usual, and as I was dancing, she was bouncing around herself! It was positively precious. Here's a picture of our sweet little ruffian :)
I'm still looking for a teaching job, which is going.... Well, it's going okay. I guess times are kind of hard in Huntsville and they aren't hiring as many new teachers (at least that's what I am telling myself so I don't lose all of my self esteem). I'm still hoping and praying that someone will give me a call telling me that they really want me to work at their school. If that doesn't happen, then I suppose I will be substituting for the next year and then giving it another go for the 2012-2013 school year. Please, please keep me in your prayers that I will find something!! Fortunately, Spencer has a good job, which I am so thankful for. I'm just waiting to see what opportunities are out there for me.. It's hard to wait around when you feel like you're meant to do something. But like I said, God has something out there for me, and unfortunately, in this case the timing seems to be more on His watch than mine. But it's not over until the fat lady sings, and she still has about a month left (when school starts) to start singing. Therefore, I am still hoping.
Oh, and what did we do for our 4th of July? I'm glad you asked! We went and got some Subway and picnicked and hiked up on beautiful Monte Sano State Park :) Then, we watched some wonderful fireworks! I love fireworks. They are quite awesome. Anyway, I've now got to go be all housewifey and run to the grocery store! I have some meals to plan! (I actually enjoy doing this, despite what I would have thought, haha)
Thanks for reading!
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
Start of Something New! (Please ignore the HS Musical reference! haha)
I'm getting married in 11 days!!! And graduating in 5 days! It's such an exciting time in my life, but at the same time, I'm not going to lie, it's a little nerve wracking. It's scary to think that in a few days, I'm going to be a grown up! I'm still on the job hunt, but so far no luck, because they aren't even posting elementary jobs yet. This is definitely a lesson in patience, and I know that if I'm supposed to be a teacher this year, the Lord will provide me with an opportunity to be one. So.. yeah. Keep praying!
Also, I have decided to calm down about the wedding. Sometimes I will be talking to Spencer about the wedding and I will start saying things like, "what if nobody shows up?" or "what if it rains?" or other things. He has been so sweet and patient with me through this time, and always grounds me by telling me that it only matters if the two of us show up, and if it rains, we'll go inside. (Not exactly what I want to hear, but still, it's coming from a good place, haha). When my little fear moments pass, I realize that no matter what, I know that I am going to have my friends and family around me, and most importantly, I'm going to be marrying the love of my life! It's going to be a wonderful day no matter what happens :)
After the wedding we are heading to NYC for a week, and I am totally psyched about that! Broadway, the Statue of Liberty, Brooklyn Bridge... SO MUCH TO SEE!!
Above all of the nerves, I am so excited to start my grown up life with the never ending support of my God, my family, my friends, and last, but DEFINITELY not least, my AMAZING fiance :)
I am a blessed, blessed girl!
Thanks for reading. Once again, sorry it was such a spazzy read. It was my mind on overdrive :)
Also, I have decided to calm down about the wedding. Sometimes I will be talking to Spencer about the wedding and I will start saying things like, "what if nobody shows up?" or "what if it rains?" or other things. He has been so sweet and patient with me through this time, and always grounds me by telling me that it only matters if the two of us show up, and if it rains, we'll go inside. (Not exactly what I want to hear, but still, it's coming from a good place, haha). When my little fear moments pass, I realize that no matter what, I know that I am going to have my friends and family around me, and most importantly, I'm going to be marrying the love of my life! It's going to be a wonderful day no matter what happens :)
After the wedding we are heading to NYC for a week, and I am totally psyched about that! Broadway, the Statue of Liberty, Brooklyn Bridge... SO MUCH TO SEE!!
Above all of the nerves, I am so excited to start my grown up life with the never ending support of my God, my family, my friends, and last, but DEFINITELY not least, my AMAZING fiance :)
I am a blessed, blessed girl!
Thanks for reading. Once again, sorry it was such a spazzy read. It was my mind on overdrive :)
Saturday, April 2, 2011
Thank you, God!!!! :)
So, big news, my wonderful fiance got a job!!!!! God has definitely answered our prayers on this one, like He always does. It's difficult sometimes to be patient and wait to see what He is going to do, but He always provides and takes care of us, even if it's not on our watch. All day I have been watching HGTV and planning what I want to do to our first apartment. I'm thinking I would absolutely love to go to the thrift store or to an estate sale or something and repaint and reupholster things so that it has a really vintage, eclectic feel. Yep, HGTV definitely has me in the funky, creative mood. :)
Only 43 days until the wedding, 37 days until college graduation. Wow. Can't wait!!!! I am so excited/nervous about really starting to be a grown up. In a way, I guess things won't really change because I've sort of been living on my own since I came to college, but the big difference about the future will be that my parents won't be supporting me anymore. And, even though it's a tad scary, I know that me and Spencer are about to embark on a wonderful adventure together. I couldn't be more thrilled. Well, I guess I could be a little more thrilled if I had my own job set up, but that will come with time :) I can't wait to start that process, applying and interviewing, and hopefully ending up with my very own teaching job! I think I would die from happiness. Not really, but you get the idea :) Also, throughout my applying process, I'm trying to always remember that if God wants me to have a classroom this year, He is going to open the door and I am going to get it, if not, then I will do some long/short term subbing until I get that chance! Just a word of wisdom for others in the same boat as me, don't get complacent. Don't just sit around waiting for God to open a door for you. That can be a trick of the enemy. I think that God will provide for us, but that doesn't mean we can sit around and do nothing, waiting for Him to provide an opportunity for us. We have to be active searchers and ministers, and along the way, God will show us our path and show us where we need to go. So, if you're sitting around and waiting, stop. Get up, and GO do something!!! Don't waste the only life you have waiting for something to happen :)
Peace out, homies :)
Only 43 days until the wedding, 37 days until college graduation. Wow. Can't wait!!!! I am so excited/nervous about really starting to be a grown up. In a way, I guess things won't really change because I've sort of been living on my own since I came to college, but the big difference about the future will be that my parents won't be supporting me anymore. And, even though it's a tad scary, I know that me and Spencer are about to embark on a wonderful adventure together. I couldn't be more thrilled. Well, I guess I could be a little more thrilled if I had my own job set up, but that will come with time :) I can't wait to start that process, applying and interviewing, and hopefully ending up with my very own teaching job! I think I would die from happiness. Not really, but you get the idea :) Also, throughout my applying process, I'm trying to always remember that if God wants me to have a classroom this year, He is going to open the door and I am going to get it, if not, then I will do some long/short term subbing until I get that chance! Just a word of wisdom for others in the same boat as me, don't get complacent. Don't just sit around waiting for God to open a door for you. That can be a trick of the enemy. I think that God will provide for us, but that doesn't mean we can sit around and do nothing, waiting for Him to provide an opportunity for us. We have to be active searchers and ministers, and along the way, God will show us our path and show us where we need to go. So, if you're sitting around and waiting, stop. Get up, and GO do something!!! Don't waste the only life you have waiting for something to happen :)
Peace out, homies :)
Thursday, March 3, 2011
Life is beautiful, even when it's crazy.
2011. It's going to be a big year. Graduating in May, getting married the same week, and hopefully (Lord willing) finding a teaching job somewhere. My mind has been in shambles the past few days. I know that the Lord will provide for me and Spencer, but the idea that we will be married in 2 months and neither one of us has a job, is sort of unsettling. Yes, I'll admit it's a bit exciting and a bit of an adventure in itself wondering where where God will put us and what we will be doing, but I sort of want to know what's going on. The wedding planning is done, I'm taking easy-peasy classes (like tumbling and tennis) and now I feel like I'm just waiting for something to happen. It can be a bit unsettling.
This past week I interviewed with seven different school districts, and that's when this whole "Wow, I'm growing up" thing really hit me. I'm really looking for a big girl job now. I'm getting married. I'm not going to be going home every break to see my parents. I'm becoming an... adult. I am so excited about everything, and I have to say, I'm READY to graduate and test the waters of the "real world." But at the same time, I feel like I'm still clinging to my childhood and all of the security my parents have always provided for me. It's all very confusing and scary, but as I have already said a few times, I'm excited about it.
I'm looking forward to starting my grown up life with Spencer. I'm glad that he will be there with me every step of the way to take care of me and to discover things with.
Lately I have been really convicted by the Lord about my anxiety about the future. I've been questioning, if everything was taken away from me and I had nothing, would I be satisfied with the Lord's love only? I know the right answer is yes. I might have to work my way towards that satisfaction, but I know it would happen. The Lord always provides and He always comes through for me, even if it isn't on my watch.
When it comes down to it, I know the Lord is going to take care of me. He is going to bless my marriage to Spencer and I know that He has AMAZING plans for me. I can't wait to see what those plans are :) I am looking forward to the rest of my beautiful, crazy life.
This past week I interviewed with seven different school districts, and that's when this whole "Wow, I'm growing up" thing really hit me. I'm really looking for a big girl job now. I'm getting married. I'm not going to be going home every break to see my parents. I'm becoming an... adult. I am so excited about everything, and I have to say, I'm READY to graduate and test the waters of the "real world." But at the same time, I feel like I'm still clinging to my childhood and all of the security my parents have always provided for me. It's all very confusing and scary, but as I have already said a few times, I'm excited about it.
I'm looking forward to starting my grown up life with Spencer. I'm glad that he will be there with me every step of the way to take care of me and to discover things with.
Lately I have been really convicted by the Lord about my anxiety about the future. I've been questioning, if everything was taken away from me and I had nothing, would I be satisfied with the Lord's love only? I know the right answer is yes. I might have to work my way towards that satisfaction, but I know it would happen. The Lord always provides and He always comes through for me, even if it isn't on my watch.
When it comes down to it, I know the Lord is going to take care of me. He is going to bless my marriage to Spencer and I know that He has AMAZING plans for me. I can't wait to see what those plans are :) I am looking forward to the rest of my beautiful, crazy life.
Monday, November 8, 2010
Love your life :)
Wow! It's been such a long time since I've gotten on here :)
Lots of things are the same, but some things are different! For example, the fact that I'm engaged now!! The proposal was absolutely perfect! Spencer took me stargazing (something we used to do a lot, because I'm absolutely fascinated with stars!) and popped the question :D Of course I said yes! Can't wait to marry the man of my dreams on May 15th, 2011! Through the engagement so far, I have learned that there is a lot of planning that goes into having a beautiful wedding, so hopefully I will remember to do everything. Also, I am hopefully going to start looking for dresses soon. I'm trying on my mom's dress first, just to see how it looks :) Who knows? It might get it's 3rd wear! (It was my mom's and my granny's!)
On a slightly different note, I'm still interning with a sweet (but insane) first grade class. I'm in the middle of my two weeks of just me teaching, and I'm actually really enjoying it! Even though my internship has been crazy, I have learned so much and I love those crazy little kids! Everyday I feel more and more that teaching is what I'm supposed to do with my life, even though it absolutely exhausts me :) I always leave that school with a very happy and content heart.
I hope that you're having a terrific day and thanks for reading my short and simple blog/life update!
God Bless :)
Nighty night!
Lots of things are the same, but some things are different! For example, the fact that I'm engaged now!! The proposal was absolutely perfect! Spencer took me stargazing (something we used to do a lot, because I'm absolutely fascinated with stars!) and popped the question :D Of course I said yes! Can't wait to marry the man of my dreams on May 15th, 2011! Through the engagement so far, I have learned that there is a lot of planning that goes into having a beautiful wedding, so hopefully I will remember to do everything. Also, I am hopefully going to start looking for dresses soon. I'm trying on my mom's dress first, just to see how it looks :) Who knows? It might get it's 3rd wear! (It was my mom's and my granny's!)
On a slightly different note, I'm still interning with a sweet (but insane) first grade class. I'm in the middle of my two weeks of just me teaching, and I'm actually really enjoying it! Even though my internship has been crazy, I have learned so much and I love those crazy little kids! Everyday I feel more and more that teaching is what I'm supposed to do with my life, even though it absolutely exhausts me :) I always leave that school with a very happy and content heart.
I hope that you're having a terrific day and thanks for reading my short and simple blog/life update!
God Bless :)
Nighty night!
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